cultivating me

it’s cold and rainy today – very much a gloomy day. the weather matches my mood today i think. i normally like sunny days but i am glad that today is not one of them because a beautiful sunny day would not go well with my sorrow today – it would probably make me grumpy. [...]

tur·moil /ˈtɜrmɔɪl/ Pronunciation Key – Show Spelled Pronun 1. a state of great commotion, confusion, or disturbance; tumult; agitation; disquiet i find myself so desperately needing to write and at the same time i am desperate to not write. i don’t know where to start even… i am tired but i can’t sleep.  sad but [...]

not literally my back yard but close enough. this canyon is a 10 minute walk from my home and i ventured out there yesterday with the kids. it had been way too long since i took the time to explore the beauty there….

i believe that everyday life gives me little gifts.  i also however forget to pay attention to these gifts. normally, i take the kids to school in the morning but yesterday, jerry did and that allowed me to get some extra rest. part of me wants to say that he took the kids so that [...]

i don’t really know where to begin here because i don’t really know what to say at the moment. i feel really bad, sad, guilty, selfish, frustrated, unsure, and yet confident and good at the same time. i made a decision recently – actually my sweetie and i made a decision recently- one that should [...]

two months ago my brother wrote a post about commitment – most specifically about his commitment to his blog and his personal need to not let that commitment fade. that post has been sitting with me ever since. i have thought of it at least once each day.  it seems strange how something can attach [...]